Well, last night was both easier and harder than I had anticipated.
Easier, because all in all it went smoothly, people asked good questions, including one that made it easy for me to share what was on my heart about the role I played in everything. And it is the final intentional confessional type moment that was planned / necessary as far as we know. So it was a relief to get it over with. Becky still has one or two people that she lied to about things that she is resolving as she gets the chance, but that is minor compared to family and church family.
Harder, because I saw something that I really didn’t want to see. I shared the Prophet of Doom thread that has been running through my life, but nobody laughed. And during the course of the meeting, I saw something on the faces of a couple in our group that gave focus to concerns that Becky and I had talked about previously for them. I think our story hit close to home for them. I don’t know exactly how close, and don’t necessarily want to know. But seeing that sort of pain is precisely what makes me to want to run in the opposite direction from my insight (ala Jonah).
Today has been rough. For a number of reasons. I’m still processing what transpired Monday night. I’m also very aware that this coming Sunday is the 2nd anniversary of my Dad’s death. Maybe I’ll try to work on my recent motorcycle acquisition as a way of connecting with him. I think I need to tear down the carbs and clean / recondition them. And I want to do a valve adjustment since the prior owner had no idea when they were last adjusted.
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